How To: Be Thankful

When beautiful people come into your life you can sometimes become so comfortable and captivated by their perfection that you forget to be thankful for their presence. Comfort can be both our saving grace and our ticket to a roller coaster from hell. Unfortunately, some of us just ride the wave until we are stranded in the middle of ocean -- alone. Allowing this to happen is the tragedy of creating connections that you are not willing to nourish and sustain. Recently, I have been associated with this tragedy...but I was not the one riding the wave. I was standing at the shore, watching them drift away. Now here they are trying to paddle back to my shores, begging for a lifesaver. It feels like it has been a thousand years. A thousand years that I have loved you. A thousand more of me waiting to see you drift back into my horizons. But you need to take time to realize that I can no longer be a casualty of this civil war that you are fighting with yourself. While I value your presence, you don't even realize mine. You don't see me. I am not going to be the tragedy, I will be the celebration -- the survivor. While I should be angry with you, I want to say thank you. Thank you for showing me that the connections I create will not only be a benefit to me, but also cherished by the other. Creating happiness is a give and take affair. We are meant to go back and forth in our projections of love. We are meant to have an abundant surplus that is just there for our constant consumption. A never-ending happiness. That's what relationships are all about, whether they be with family, friends, lovers...its all the same. So by definition, I give everyone in my realm of consciousness the same treatment. If you are in my receptive field you will receive a stimulus from my love that will send your action potential haywire. I do this because everyone needs to know that their presence, even the little things, are seen and appreciated.

Since we are on the topic of being thankful...I do want to publicly thank some friends that made yesterday, and this morning a success. If you are in college, its that time of the quarter where you feel like the devil is poking at you every second. Some people call them midterms -- I call them something a little different, definitely not mom-approved. Whatever you call them, THEY ARE HERE! This week has been the epitome of terror as I had two midterms, one yesterday in Microeconomics and another this morning in Biopsychology. And on top of that I had two Math assignments due right in the middle of the storm. Saying that I was stressed would be the understatement of the century. I was so stressed that my chest felt as if it were going to concave from the wrecking ball of life. But in the midst of all of this, I remembered some things. Even when I am at my lowest, I can still look to my garden and find happiness in it. I could find comfort in my friends. They could be my saving grace. Suddenly I sprung into action and I began by calling Bianca, knowing that she would just listen to me vent and give me some reassurance. While I don't think she knows how much that five minute phone call meant, it definitely kept me from having a panic attack. So thank you! Then, after my midterm review session I looked to Kendall, knowing that his never-ending positivity would bring me some comfort. I proceeded to have him help me study for my midterm and finish my math assignments -- he executed without fail. I can't forget to thank Kelsey for helping me as well! I quite literally sped through my textbook explaining every possible topic to these two for hours...how they managed to stay interested I don't know -- its Biopsych for God's sake! Regardless, I have so much appreciation for what they did, because without them I probably would have failed my test. BUT, the good news is I took my test this morning and I feel very confident that I did well!

Ultimately, everything that has been happening in my life has shown me that being thankful is something that we should never stop doing. We never know when people will exit our lives so we should cherish every moment we have. I could have let what my friends did for me go unnoticed, but then that wouldn't be characteristic to what my life, and be thankful is about. I could have let the negative things in my life take over my mind and send me for a downward spiral, but I looked up and out of my hole and found myself in my garden...I couldn't be more thankful for the connections I have created. All in all, I think we should always be mindful of the important people in our lives and make sure that are receiving the same love that they give to us. Stay blessed and ALWAYS be thankful!

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If you want to know how to make your own happiness garden, check out my post How To: See The Little Things. And don't forget to pick your favorite post so far and send me a message on why! And look to your right and vote on the poll! Love you guys!

How To: Be Spontaneous (Pickwick)

If I had to describe how today has been in one word...spontaneous. In a world where we have to schedule in time to see the people we love, program alarms to send us to work, use Facebook to remind us of birthdays, I think we could all use some spontaneity in our lives. Today was UW Day, my school's anniversary! While this is reason alone to be excited about today, something else catalyzed the mood I am feeling right now. My day started off amazing because firstly, I was dressed quite nicely -- for no reason. I bet some people would wonder why this is a reason to feel amazing, that this is shallow. But let me be the one to tell you that I am not a fan of letting material things dictate your behaviors, but I am an advocate of enforcing your already existing love for yourself with a little "pampering." Hell, we all need a little goodness in our lives sometimes right? Regardless, my great mood continued when I decided to skip my math lecture, oh the joys of college, and enjoy the festivities of UW Day in Red Square. There I enjoyed our amazing band play songs ranging from Crazy In Love by Beyonce to The Whisper Song by The Ying-Yang Twins....yes this was at UW! It was a beautiful sight and I enjoyed every second of it. Moving foreword I ran into my friends Kendall a.k.a. Taco, Alec, and Melissa and then we hung out for a little, drinking Honest Tea, eating food the from trucks, and then sharing in the beauty and allure of this local band, Pickwick. Now let me just tell you, this band had me felling some kind of way! Their feeling, their sound, their lyrics, their vibe...everything that they were giving was quality -- complete perfection. Its not common to see a band that can just strip you down and bring you back to reality while performing live. Something else I found captivating about this band was the talent, in ALL members. They all were a part of a collective. Even the background vocals held up on their own! But let us not underrate the perfection that was their lead singer, Galen. His voice was something angelic. He has an incredibly old soul countered with an energized fire that cannot be ignored. You could here his story in his voice. He literally took me somewhere with his countless runs and belted notes. It all was on point. Basically what I am trying to say is, YOU NEED TO LOOK THIS BAND UP. Pickwick is definitely a band to watch and you will be hearing of them very soon! Ultimately, this day so far has been perfection and I am excited to continue the spontaneity because the night is young! I am so happy that I let my day make itself -- no need for planning, I just did. Days like this are hard to come by these days...Am I saying skip your lectures/jobs to feel good? Not really. Haha But I think what I am trying to drive to you guys is that you should let things come to you. Let life come to you. Stop planning your every move! Stop living by your phone. Just do what feels right. Be spontaneous.

Like Pickwick on Facebook! Check our their Band Website! Follow them on Twitter!

Oh! And they have upcoming tour dates here in Seattle at The Crocodile on December 13th and 14th! Open to ALL ages! 

Here's a video of my obsession by them right now, The Round!

How To: Look Foreword

HUGE NEWS! OWN Network (Oprah Winfrey Network) contacted me today and they are going to use some of my tweets in a promo for Super Soul Sunday, which is an amazing program on the network...CHECK IT OUT THIS WEEKEND! This is huge for us! Dreams do come true, and I am getting closer and closer to mine with your help! SO this is my thank you....

Ambitious Daydreamer. That is what I am. That is what all of you are. Together we are a force that cannot be shaken, together we are heard, together we can change the world. I know that I have already written a post thanking all of you for supporting me and my dreams, but let me just take it a little deeper for ya'll. In life we always want to discover our purpose, to find out what we were put on this earth for. Discovering this has been one of the craziest challenges that I have ever faced. Growing up I always felt like I was meant for something great...I just couldn't figure out what that thing was -- would I ever live up to it? Just like the eager purpose chaser I was, I thought I was supposed to change myself to be what everyone else thought I was supposed to be. I thought that I was incapable of finding my own path -- incapable of finding my purpose. So when people would bash me in the hallways, on social networks, tear down my name...I believed it for a long time. I believed that I was the dirt beneath their feet, the forever unnoticed. It took a youth 252 conference at my amazing church Champion Centre to help me see a fraction of the light that I am radiating now. At this conference they pressed a specific verse, "You are the salt of the earth." Meaning that without your presence the world would lose it's perfect flavoring, that something would be missing from this complex recipe of life. That stuck with me more than anything. I may be seen as the dirt beneath their feet, but to God, this world would lose some of its beauty without my presence. That is a lesson that I will hold with me for the rest of my life. So I would like to say thank you to my church and all of my pastors for starting my journey. After this conference I had found a new confidence -- a pep in my step. With this burst of courage I decided to make new friends, open myself to the world again, be myself. Doing this brought me my amazing group of friends back home. They watched me grow into a more confident and extroverted human being, and they helped me learn how to trust myself and others again. So I would like to say thank you to my crew -- my family. My family. I can't even forget to thank them as well! My relationship with my family is definitely not what people would think, but I still love them more than anything. My morals, my audacity, my fire...it all comes from them. My mom and here dedication to seeing me succeed, my dad and his constant support, and the rest of them for being an amazing support system. Most of all, I want to thank my brother, Dondia. He has always been there. He sees through my bs and supports everything that I am. Unconditional love is what family is about and he gives that without fail. So thank you brother! Moving on I want to thank my teachers. You all know who you are, the ones that have taught me some of the greatest lessons ever. The ones that supported my ambitious daydreams even when I didn't see them. Thank you to Bethel High School for being an amazing school. Not everyone had the same experience as I did, but I wouldn't change a thing. I learned a lot about being myself. Thank you to the class of 2012 for believing in me and my crazy self! You guys are all like family to me! And I can't forget my UW family..my PPP's. You guys already know what you mean to me and what you have done. I love you all, and I am addicted to you all! Lastly, I just want to thank everyone that reads my blog. The increasing views, the comments, the shares, it all warms my heart on a level that is contagious. Without all of you, this blog would just be lost words on the web. Without all of you, I wouldn't be able to see what my life is about -- what my purpose is in this world. With the help of all of you, I know that I am meant to inspire. I am meant to be a product and creator of the empowerment of others. I can feel myself figuring out my life and it is the greatest feeling in the entire world. I know this post is long, but if you have stuck it out with me this whole time thanks! Figuring out your purpose is a journey that you should never give up on it. It may be long, it may be stressful and hard, but it will always end beautifully. Don't give up on yourself -- don't give up on your dreams. My story is a testament to this, and I hope you all realize that happiness can come your way as well! I love you all, and thank you for bringing light into my life, I just hope I bring a little into yours too!

Where is my inspiration coming from right now? Tori Kelly's EP Foreword is OUT NOW! It is amazingly inspirational and her talent is undeniable. GO BUY IT ON ITUNES!

How To: See The Little Things

This morning I woke up realizing a very important lesson all over again... See that's the thing about lessons...its not just something you learn once and then walk away from. Its something that you learn, and continue to expand in order to find deeper meanings and ensure that history is not repeated. With that being said, this morning I revisited finding happiness in the little things. Now I know that this is something that people harp on time and time again, but what's interesting, is that while people can talk about this as much as they want, for some reason people still don't do this correctly.

I feel like we all are inherently selfish beings. That sounds rude and cynical, but its very true. We never want to do something that will put us at harm and if something requires us to stretch our comfort we automatically have a resistance. This isn't something to be ashamed of honestly...we all have to maintain homeostasis -- even beyond the biological meaning. What I am trying to get at, is that YES we are selfish beings by definition, but does achieving our happiness have to be a selfish adventure as well? Let me explain. I feel like people do not realize that happiness is not something that is given to you. Nor can you create it alone. If that were true, we would all become hobbits with no desire to make human interactions. Creating happiness in your life begins inside yourself, but it is finished when you project your beautifully created vibes to the people around you. For example, when I'm alone I live for talking to strangers. (younger kids don't try this at home!) Just randomly sitting next to people in coffee shops, eating lunch with the single person in the corner, learning someone else's story, projecting my beautifully created vibes like a prism reaching every possible receptor in my range of light. While this calls for a more extroverted personality, there's an idea that I am trying to get through here. Creating happiness is essentially a give and take situation. You find the seed inside yourself, you plant it in others, and then you watch your garden blossom. This garden does require grooming and maintenance, but I assure you that it will bring you the most beautiful sites, even on your worst days. You are the gardener, take pride in your work! Take a moment to explore the leaves, the branches, the flowers. Everything in your life is a product of what you make of it. Meaning that your happiness is in your own hands!

To conclude, we live in a busy world. We have appointments stretching for miles, we accumulate hours upon hours of work, we go to school, we do homework, we maintain a healthy and functional home, we maintain relationships, we go out with friends, we sleep, we do it all.... 24 hours. That's all we are given. And at night we lay in our beds wishing we did more, wishing we had a greater meaning. Wishing is okay for a daydreamer, but it is also our kryptonite. Daydreaming keeps reality and our visions in mind -- wishing does not. Wishing causes us to revert to our selfish beginnings. We cannot wish for happiness to enter our lives, we have to be willing to go out of our comfort zones to discover new lands. And in these new lands we will set up a new home, create new gardens, and let our beautifully created vibes shower the people around us AND let others shower us. Conceptually, we began as a seed. Our vines need nourishment, our roots need foundation, our leaves need pruning. Maybe we should start letting water in, letting light into our lives. Only then can we blossom -- only then can we see the little things.

How To: End The Search For Love

Okay so I just watched this video...you should probably take the time out of your night to watch the ENTIRE thing like I was forced to before you continue to read the post. I will be honest, this video made me cry, I held in a lot of the tears, but let it be known some were shed watching this perfection.

I know most people don't like to watch proposal videos, or see people take cute pictures with their significant other...but I am a lover of such things. I love to see love blossom into something beautiful and euphoric. I love to see people be happy with their soul mate -- that's what I hope to find in life. So I feel like the only way I can let out what I am feeling right now...is to write a letter. A letter to my future soul mate.

Hello,

If you are reading are a hard copy of this, you must be my soul mate -- the person I want to spend the rest of my life with. Let me begin by saying thank you. You may not know this, but you have changed my life in ways that you cannot even imagine. I have strayed away from love for so long...waiting for that right person -- and that person is you. While I do not ask much from you other than your love, I can tell you what you should expect from me. I am yours. There is no need to be searching any longer. You are my sunshine in the rain. You are my teammate -- my partner in crime. I am here for you, through the shitty nights when we wanna go Rambo on each other, through all the obstacles that come our way...I will always be here. Growing up I watched people around me go in and out of relationships, and I was always seen as weird, love deprived, alone...little did they know that I have felt your love from the very day I understood this crazy concept of love...way before I even met you. I knew that God was holding my greatest surprise for a later time. No need to be searching, because you were already made for me -- already set in my life before I even knew it. It's crazy how life brings people together huh? The day I met you was the day that I knew that everything was going right in my life. I knew that no matter what life threw at me, I had comfort in your embrace. I found home in your heart... At this point, I hope you have realized that I am probably the most confusing puzzle you have ever attempted...but rest assured that this won't be unsolvable -- it'll be worth the wait. And by the looks of this letter resting in your hand, you have figured out the final piece to this puzzle -- and its you. Our love will be something people will talk about till the end of time. It will be the love that our children will want to find, the kind that our friends and family look to for inspiration -- true love. True love...what is this thing that these crazy kids have been trying to figure out since the beginning of time? Let me tell you. Its the kind of love that we have. The kind of love where I see the real you. No need for fancy clothes, makeup, or crazy facades. I see you. The kind of love where no matter who or what tries to bring us down, we still stand out on top, resilient in our love and future together. The kind of love that cannot be explained by simple words or phrases...the simple "I love you" will not suffice. It will take a collection of words, memories, emotions, energy, everything that we could possibly give. And there's no need to be afraid of being hurt, because I'm done searching. The search is over. I found you. You found me. There's nothing else that we need. Just take this chance with me, and make happily ever after a real thing. Forever is just over the mountaintop, and I wouldn't wanna make this climb with anyone else. I love you.

Your Soul Mate.

I will never know what life will bring my way, but I do know that I don't need to go searching for my soul mate because they have already been created for me...when the time comes, God will bring them my way. Stop searching for the right man, the right woman, just relax. Life will bring you to your love.

How To: Deal With Ignorance

Today I encountered a very huge dose of ignorance and I have no choice but to share my experience with all of you. As you know, I go to the University of Washington located in Seattle. Seattle is well known for its acceptance of the weird, the odd, the strange, or in my words -- regular damn people with open minds. Unfortunately, just because you live in such an accepting environment doesn't mean that ignorance does not exist. Today I was eating lunch in the HUB (Husky Union Building) and I sat next to a very disturbed man who was attempting to persuade this woman into joining Christianity -- or what he thought it was about. Let the record show that I am not a confrontational person, but I will always stand up for what I believe in. Anyway, this man rambled for about half an hour about how women are corrupt, minorities are meant to be slaves, homosexuality is for demons, and men are the rightful heirs to the promised land. As a person from a strong Christian background I could not stand to listen to such insanity. I turned to my left and asked if I could interject into the conversation...clearly he agreed believing I could be bullied by his tone -- WRONG. As he continued to spit out complete ignorance left and right I politely asked him if I could speak. I began by asking him if he truly believed everything he was saying -- he did. Moving forward I began to tell him and the woman about how I see Christianity and the other respective topics he so gracefully destroyed. 

"As a strong lover of women, a minority who is NOT meant for slavery or ever will be, a supporter of equal rights, and just an all-around culturally aware person I am offended by your comments. Yes, Eve committed the first sin, but isn't Mary the woman that bore the Son of God cleaning the slate for all women to come? Don't you respect your mother for carrying you for nine months and taking care of you? Yes, minorities were enslaved at one time. But if we were still meant to endure such indecencies, why is our president African-American, voted in by not only minorities, but Caucasians as well? Yes, homosexuality is different to what you may be used to, but as a Christian you are called to love everyone -- preaching hate makes your cause misguided. And beyond that, who are we to impose our morals on someone else? Love is something that should never have to be explained. I'm not here to tell you that you're a terrible person, just misguided. I'll pray for you and I hope you have a great day." 

Ignorance is something that we deal everyday, but it is up to us, the educated and culturally aware, to make our voices heard as well. While others promote hate, we should be countering with love and information. In moments like these I find myself testing my patience, my faith, my love, and my character. I could have handled this in so many different ways, but I chose a route that I feel was mature and helpful. This was confirmed by the woman hugging me and saying, "That was well handled and you have a beautiful soul. Thanks for making my day." 

How To: Change the World

Step One: Start by loving yourself, believing in yourself, finding your perfections...While this is a pretty simple idea, this is the most difficult step in this entire process. We all have the ability to make a difference -- leave our mark in time. Our main problem is, WE don't see ourselves in such way. We sit back and believe that our voice will never be heard, that the rich and upper one percent are meant to do the work. NO! We should not measure our level of influence by our income, but by our ambition to make a change. Start believing in yourself and this whole process will be a breeze! For more words of inspiration to see that your imperfections are perfection check out my post http://dlenoir510.blogspot.com/2013/07/there-are-perfections-in-imperfection.html

Step Two: Dream! This is simple. We dream at night, during the day, and everything in between! Now you just have to look at this world, and see where you want to improve it. Dreams are meant for the individual that sees a world that needs a change. Whether it be that hot piece of man across the room that you have been wanting to game up, or that beautiful woman that you just can't find the right way to approach, we dream about what we want in life! Now just dream about something bigger than yourself! All you have to do is think about how this world could benefit... and your dreams will do the rest! Every change starts with a dream, and every dream begins with an idea. FIND YOURS! Finding my dream was hard, but it takes time -- check out my post http://dlenoir510.blogspot.com/2013/08/this-is-me.html

Step Three: Be Ambitiously Courageous. On the track to changing the world, you will run into some bumps down the road. You will make mistakes, you will lose some friends, make new ones, feel like your crazy, be in the face of failure...BUT it will all be worth it! You have to look back to step one and remember that you can do this! Believe in yourself! Nothing is ever handed to you, so go out there and take what is yours -- make your mark. Make sure people know that you were here. Backup your dreams harder than anything else! Holding on to your dreams is crucial on the road to change. Many people become influenced by others and their wrongdoings, but you must make a stand and make sure people know what YOU are about. Step out and let people know who you are.

Step Four: Create An Army. The idea is simple -- there is strength in numbers. While you could possibly reach the change you want to see alone, you will feel an even greater satisfaction knowing that you brought a team with you. Influencing the world is a great responsibility -- a calling for greatness. Sometimes we must realize our limits as ONE person and see that we need others to help us make our dreams become reality. The only way you can see the beauty and perfection of 3-D movies is to put those damn glasses on! They may be uncomfortable at times, but without them you would be looking at a distorted screen with know clear image at all. Don't be afraid of letting others in, it may uncomfortable at first, but the end product is a dream that has now become redefined and tangible.

Step Five: Be Happy. This is the last step in my process to change the world!! Being happy seems easy, but once you have created a following, you will also acquire a counter army as well. This army is there to just tear you down and tell you that you can't make the change that you see in your horizons. You have to realize that when people see someone else doing something bigger than themselves, they become envious and bothered. You can't allow the words of others to diminish the dream that you have worked so hard to create! You also can't allow yourself to talk yourself out of being happy. We often tell ourselves that we don't deserve happiness or good things in life, but you have to remember something crucial: At this point in your journey you have evolved into an amazingly beautiful human being and nobody can take away this experience or the change that you have made in yourself and the people around you. YOU have to be happy with what you have done thus far, and be even more happy with what you will continue to do! Be happy with your present, but also be excited for your future! Don't forget the dream that this all started with because it is the most beautiful thing to come from your mind, body, and soul. Need help finding happiness in yourself and the simple things around you? Check out my post http://dlenoir510.blogspot.com/2013/06/happy.html


So I guess that's it! Changing the world doesn't take as many steps as you would think huh? Anyone can make a difference, you just have to be an Ambitious Daydreamer at heart! Find yourself, find your dream, find your ambition, find your army -- find your happiness. This life has so much to offer you, you just have to want it bad enough.

October Has Come/How To: Not Feel Lonely

WELCOME

First post of the month!!!! I literally have been anticipating this SO much! I just hope you guys have too! Well September was an amazing month for us and the trek to creating more and more Ambitious Daydreamers...our viewing audience grew exponentially which surprised me in ways I can't describe.. and I hope I inspired you all to appreciate your loved ones even more!(cough cough..SAPPY SEPTEMBER) Also, we got certified as a blog with substance, as well as skyrocketing to the top spots on Google! BUT what does October have to bring for us?!?! Let us discuss...To begin with, I had the opportunity to guest post on an AMAZING blog, www.cassandrapedia.com ! This is a HUGE deal for getting my vision out there so that was REALLY exciting! GO CHECK OUT HER PAGE!

Alright so moving onto the other things I have planned for this month...some cool new additions are coming to blog...I hope to change the look a little, I'm adding a place for some of my most favorite quotes, I might even add an advice section (only if ppl comment saying YES), and I have a HUGE surprise that I can't disclose...just cause I like surprises! But yes, this month has some excitement coming, and I hope you guys continue to support my ambitious daydreams. Make sure you tell everyone you know about this page! Share it, comment on posts, get fully invested in this whole experience because that is EXACTLY what I have done at this point. No comment is not worth hearing, if you hate something, which I hope you don't, TELL ME! If you LOVE something....PLEASE TELL ME! It feels good knowing that my words aren't just going on a page with no one being moved by them. 

HERE IS THE POST

Why does everyone want to fall in love? What's so great about it? Why is everyone else happy but me?...This is what a lot of lonely people sound like. I'm not saying this to be mean or bitter -- I say this because just as you guys were probably shocked by reading that, it has the same result when other people read those words from your social accounts. You guys have read my blog. You pretty much know every detail that is my life. I have experienced heartaches, I have been cheated on, I have been disappointed in people, but one thing I never do is wholeheartedly believe that I am meant to be forever lonely. I know that you can read this on a wall at school or hear it from your parents but let me tell you that you are worth someone's time. YOU are meant to be with someone. YOU are meant to love other's and feel the happiness that all of those disgustingly cute couples do! Am I telling you that you won't hit rough patches? Hell no. I've been there. I know how it feels to wonder why you are getting out of the bed in the morning. I know how it feels to wonder if anyone actually sees the real you -- if people really understand...or will they ever? It's okay to be in a slump! They happen from time to time...but you are meant to rise above the bad times in life. For example, recently I fell for someone I wasn't supposed to. I believed that they could feel the same...that they could love me like I love them...that they had changed. Unfortunately, this person couldn't see what I did. They couldn't understand that we could be perfection. While that was a harsh reality to come to, while I did take a night to drink and cry about how life sucks (bad idea), while I did take a few weeks to get back to myself... HERE I AM, completely happy with where my life is right now. I have realized that love isn't something that we should have to try to find. We are meant to sit back, think about exactly what we want out of relationships for that moment when something happens, but we can't forget to live life! Don't get stuck in the fact that you don't have A significant other, because I guarantee there are MANY significant people in your life that need love. Treasure your friends, your loved ones -- don't waste life consistently worried about when that special someone is coming! Be happy with where your life is right now. Be happy as a complete human being and then allow someone to come in, like extra credit for being awesome! You already made the test your b****, now really rub it in and get the bonus questions right! That's what relationships are supposed to be, extra credit in the test of life. Don't get hung up on getting the extremely confusing bonus questions right and then forget about the ones that matter most. Don't fail this test just because you wanted that extra credit. Work on acing this thing called life, and then check out those bonus questions! Happy studying!


My inspiration? Tori Kelly, who's new EP: FOREWORD comes out in a couple days...BUY IT!