"I Like You..I Think?"

Let me just begin by saying this: If you like me..DON'T play little kid games and put me on an emotional roller coaster. Last time I checked I didn't buy a ticket to an amusement park. This is real life fool, GET WITH THE PROGRAM. Can someone please just explain to me why people feel so compelled to make things complicated? Like did nobody take Avril Lavigne's lyrics to heart?!?!

But you've become...

Somebody else 'round everyone else
You're watching your back like you can't relax
You're tryin' to be cool
You look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why do you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated

........

You promised me I'm never gonna find you fake it

This girl was straight preaching to us and clearly this kid, and many others, didn't get the memo. And the funny part is, I don't even feel anything for them, but what really gets to me is that we are supposed to be friends. If we are gonna be friends I DON'T CARE if you have feelings for me, feelings are where we find our truths, but DON'T YOU DARE act a certain way, flirt, try and get all hot and bothered and shit with me and then turn and say, "Oh....Oh...I...I did nothing" Like really??!?!?! That makes the awkward vibe that you clearly didn't want to come right in the middle of us.

In my opinion, I think that feelings should never be a game. If you feel a certain way trust that your friend will understand and not make it awkward. But I am not a believer in closeting your feelings for people and becoming miserable in your own 007 covert mission to hide what is clearly there. Have a feeling? Express it. Have a thought? Say it. While this seems so easy, this is the reason why friendships end, relationships become tainted, and lives become shitty.

One last thought: While I want you to be honest with yourself and tell me the truth...I know I will never get it...does this mean I should just not care? Does this mean I should just stop being friends with you? Unfortunately, these questions won't be answered at the moment because I have feelings for someone else...while they lack in places, like we all do, their imperfections make me smile, laugh, get all warm and fuzzy. You lost your chance a long time ago...deal with it. My life goes on and I won't spend it worrying about you, how you are feeling, what you are doing, because that's energy I would be taking away from ensuring my happiness. Yes I care about you deeply, and you can come to me whenever you want. But my mind won't ride this roller coaster with you anymore -- I'm trying to coast on this ship to happiness now. :)